so fat
i need to lose 5 pounds
don’t know how to do this other than stop eating - which is tiring and all but needs to be done
I’m so self conscious, it’s annoying
i constantly compare myself to my boyfriends ex just cause she’s thin as a stick
shouldn’t do this, but i do, even though i know he hates her and all that bull…
i’d never want to be that thin though i’ve always found it gross
i’m proud of mah ass
i just want my fucking flat stomach that i used to have
just sitting heer drinking root beer
i want to be tan, but i don’t want to tan
my lovely boyfriend is camping for a week… without me; damn school
thought i’d be going crazy by now ‘cause i’m not a loud to text him being that the canadian boarder comes with high phone expenses over here, even if the beer and cheese is cheaper over there hm
but calling me every night is fine
don’t know why i’m writing about this…
i’m going to go finnish this stupid soda and watch ELlen on tv and then go buy shoes for a party thats still kind of far away.
my friends 16th party, who turned 16 mayybe 3 months ago?, is a little more then a week away from my birthday - so i’m just going to pretend it’s my birthday party too hers is going to be big, and i can’t have one. so thus works outith
"I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in life. And I am horribly limited."
- Sylvia Plath (via theroseonthegrey)
